I wish I had discovered Ted Loder earlier in my ministry. His deep prayers and honest struggles carry words that ground us in the reality of our lives. Loder’s book, “Guerrillas of Grace: Prayers for the Battle” is filled with treasurers.
“Pry me off dead center-
Deliver me from assuming that mercy is gentle.
Pressure me that I may grow more human,
not through the lessening of my struggles,
but through an expansion of them
that will undamn me
and unbury my gifts.
Deepen my hurt
until I learn to share it
and my needs honestly.
Sharpen my fears
until I name them
and release the power I have locked in them
and they in me.
Accentuate my confusion
until I shed those grandiose expectations
that divert me from the small, glad gifts
of the now and the here and the me.
Expose my shame where it shivers,
crouched behind the curtains of propriety,
until I can laugh at last
through my common frailties and failures,
laugh my way toward becoming whole.
from just going through the motions
and wasting everything I have
which is today,
Let how much it all matters
pry me off dead center
so if I am moved inside
they will be real
and I will be in touch with who I am
and who you are
and who my sisters and brothers are.”
-Ted Loder, Guerrillas of Grace: Prayers for the Battle